hey there
listen to mk.gee’s “you”
its july of 2025. figured I would give an update to what life is like for me since there was a gap between my last letter in 2023 and now.
mei and i broke up in april of 2024. my workload increased along with my seniority in my workcenter, and i was tasked with a lot of work that i couldn’t keep up. this pent up stress, made it hard to chill out so my anger issues never subsided and both of Mei and i were traveling so much that we weren’t even spending time together. it was inevitable that we would grow apart. i was in the middle of the trip when the conversation occurred and man that fucked me up pretty hard. the only saving grace for me was returning home to mocha and having the responsibility of taking care of her.
over the next year, i completely threw myself into work even though i didn’t have any gas in the tank. i kept this up until may of 2025.the stress, the lack of any space for my own life was causing me to wind up. This winding up would drive me to my breaking point. i was crashing out pretty bad, taking my anger out on people in public and acting like a child having a tantrum. it got very serious and i realized i needed to be proactive and change my workload and prioritize myself. focus on my mental, my physical, and take care of this laundry list of issues with a therapist.
i’ve prioritized being transparent, not fucking around with facades and put honesty up front. it’s made me a little more abrasive in a sense, but my reflections/therapy sessions have led me to grow that patience. i’m hoping to not have such high highs and such low lows. i want to have a more even keeled approach to my day to days.
i had a trip to okinawa recently and i made a lot of realizations regarding my love for doing something active outdoors. why snowboarding/surfing/climbing mean so much to me. it was a time to focus on something other than the internal emotions. a time to remember the movement of my younger days, a reminder of how much life has gone by, how much time i’ve spent learning so many different things
all this recently catalyzed my “training” arc. i won’t be ordering food more than once a week, cooking most of my meals, and avoiding heavily processed sugars. i’m also falling asleep at like 9pm so i can wake up hella early to walk mocha before the crazy tokyo heat shows up.
I’ve been spending my free time physically training most of the week for outdoor climbing season. i’m also waiting on my surfboard from source to arrive so i can train shoulders and catch waves down in kanagawa.
with other down time i’ve been working on music and project t. i made this website and have been working on ideas with abdullah. i’m also practicing my chords and utilizing more chord movement exercises to help with my compositions.
i’ve also been talking with francis, abdullah, and nikco a lot and playing some fun video games. i’ve also been taking time to socialize with my coworkers and such. it’s been interesting, i feel better but i’m also aware that i still have a lot of work to do before i completely figure out this anger stuff.
i didn’t want to just share the easy going parts with you, i wanted you to see how i’ve handled this down period in my life. i do apologize for not really writing up until recently but i’m finally not lost in my own b.s. and can take a little time here and there to write things out.
thanks for listening, take care kids.